Hey guys, I just wanna say something to you

Cutting hurts. Strangulation hurts. Seeing your friend die before your eyes hurt. Seeing your friend's body because she was murdered hurts. R'a'p'e hurts. S'e'x trafficking hurts. Knowing that people are going hungry hurts. Knowing that a ton of people are dying every minute hurts. Seeing your mom come home in tears, because she had patients die that day, it hurts. Watching your own dog get hit by a car hurts. Being told that your parents abused you hurts. Knowing that I will never see my 23 year old brother again hurts. Having nightmares every night about the same thing over and over hurts. Knowing that police brutality is reality hurts. Seeing the worst of the world hurts. Having people call you a **** hurts. Having your brother nearly beat you to death hurts. PTSD hurts. Depression hurts. Social Anxiety hurts. Knowing you can't go certain places because of who your brother is hurts. Having people walk up to you and ask, "Are you Ayden's sister" hurts like hell. Knowing that I really wanna kill myself right now, it kind of hurts, too. I'm not sure I can get through the day today. There is too much pain and suffering in the world, and I don't think I can live with that knowledge anymore. It hurts me too much. I'm not very important. I caouldn't make a channge in anything, even if I tried. I know I'm a failure. I don't need reminding anymore. I can't supply 30 year olds with the sexual gratification they want out of my body, all the damn time. I can't be seen as a **** anymore,even if it was r'a'p'e. People do what they want to me, and I can't handle it anymore.