Everyone asks me if I'm alright when I say I'm ok but not ok and I need space right now where I'm going pain is real. Look it just been depression now i just want to cry out loud and there is no essence to mind and I'm still asking how i don't want to be alone it got me stressing out for help im cry save me i hate myself right now im depression screaming  for help feeling all alone in public my mind try to play me thinking i'm the only going through this I been feeling numb lost myself try to find someone to trust really hard dying inside no one ever think about me they will ask for i'm ok but i can't hide my pain or tears just know pain is really living empty dying inside my life is just a big lie i can say i'm happy i would be lying feel worthless not good enough fight for so long don't care how much silence is but about so many things I look at the big but i don't understand lot of things because of depression life is hard but my life is so hard i was depression my time i so sad would you care if i died depression is really but thing are seriously i know i should not do it but i will be fine my family i just got my gamas ashes it much say sad my life i will died at the end but who cares my life not worth to be save i work my but off to try to be happy my life is so hard but pain my tears but i look at this if i fake smile means people don't know i look like my mother who left again my depression hard i don't know how to heal it my life i don't  wanna live but who care people look at me make funny of me my life is just a big lying i was through it will get better but it hasn't i'm not too bad is my depression i got stress right so much thoughts in my mind people do not understand what i'm going thoughts sometime i struggle in this place but trying to get there it but it hard to do it i deal with my pain on my own they say it bad so i don't listen to the no’s i know i might sound happy but im really not inside im just praying every night im to trying be happy with  my life and other people my pain is real it hurt me every day i dont understand why people keep hurting me hurting or killing yourself all the time i think about this because i dont want to be here life is hard and was has  to me iḿ learn about life no one going to help me in life